Day 484 - I am going to see a shrink
After struggling at work on Wednesday, I decided I need to see a Shrink.
I feel scared and worried about the mark it will leave on me.
I've always been a little weird, but never to the extend whereby I feel so out of control.
We are indeed similar, we only consider our own feelings and never anyone else's. You just say whatever you feel like without even considering the consequences and will never to stick to your words.
We use our depression as an excuse to treat each other badly or demand understanding, you are a horrible human and I became as horrible as you are.
They said, if you felt used then you most probably were, and I cannot disagree - the fact that up till July, you continue to let me invest my efforts/money/feelings on you by saying you have no time, no money etc while you saw other people is no longer a personality issue, it is a character issue.
You think feelings are all it takes to hold a relationship, you don't see the benefits of us, instead you rather invest in random strangers. You are that kind who return shitty treatment with kindness, I think you have serious self esteem issues and so do I.
I feel scared and worried about the mark it will leave on me.
I've always been a little weird, but never to the extend whereby I feel so out of control.
We are indeed similar, we only consider our own feelings and never anyone else's. You just say whatever you feel like without even considering the consequences and will never to stick to your words.
We use our depression as an excuse to treat each other badly or demand understanding, you are a horrible human and I became as horrible as you are.
They said, if you felt used then you most probably were, and I cannot disagree - the fact that up till July, you continue to let me invest my efforts/money/feelings on you by saying you have no time, no money etc while you saw other people is no longer a personality issue, it is a character issue.
You think feelings are all it takes to hold a relationship, you don't see the benefits of us, instead you rather invest in random strangers. You are that kind who return shitty treatment with kindness, I think you have serious self esteem issues and so do I.
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