不是不想相信你，而是不敢

Today I thought that the reason why I am still so angry with myself is because I really really wanted to believe in you. I wanted to believe you loved me, I wanted to believe you messed up. I wanted to believe you wanted to make it up to me.

Even if all of that wont work, at least tell me the truth. Why lie to me? I really wanted to forgive you but cause you kept lying, I cant.