You can't force the outcome that you want

I guess this statement applies to both of us.

You shouldn't force me to stay and I shouldn't force myself to stay. I do really hope you will stop contacting me, but for some reason I wanted you to come to terms yourself which you obviously can't.

Then I get angry that you can't comes to terms yourself and punish you for it....

That's some really fucked up shit going on between us.

I don't think you truly cared about me neither did I truly care about you. We're both rather selfish person who can only think for ourselves. I got a bit better at that, but I'm not sure about you.

I've long decided to let things go, albeit somehow it got really hard, and it took me so long. I'm hoping things will end this time.